Everyone has their routines in the morning. Mine usually consists of: wake up, grab iPhone and check email, Twitter, Facebook and blogs (in that order), shower, get dressed…etc. And right in the middle of all that, when I’m debating which t-shirt to throw on, I see them. Our two infant urns. Micah and Judah. A […]
Things Have Been a Little Quiet Around Here
So, things have been a little quiet around here on DazedDad.com. It’s funny what emotions can do and how they can make you feel. Part of me feels like I just needed some time away from writing about grief, death and our loss. But another part of me feels guilty that I haven’t been writing […]
A New Year
The above photo was taken between Gooding and Shoshone, Idaho on Highway 26. It’s one of my favorite photos I’ve taken and has come to be the symbol and image I think of when I think of “journey.” And so it is on my mind today as 2010 ends and a new year begins tomorrow. […]
I Would Trade it All…
There have been some moments in the past few weeks when I’ve thought about what possible good thing may have come out of our story. While I met with my spiritual director last month, he asked me a similar question, “What gifts did your boys give you?” And while we were meeting with a new […]
Infant Urns & StoryPeople Prints
Once we had Micah and Judah’s ashes, we then had to figure out what we were going to do with them. We’re not really in a place that is meaningful enough to us at this point in our lives that we’d want to spread their ashes around here, and so we decided to just get […]
2 Months and An Offering
As many around the world are celebrating the birth of a baby boy today, today marks 2 months since our two baby boys both entered and left this world. I’m feeling a mix of emotions today and know there are so many around the world who just try to grin and bear it through the […]
A Trip to the Mortuary to Pick up the Boys
Nothing like typing in a title for a blog post called “A Trip to the Mortuary to Pick up the Boys.” That’s enough to make you want to stop reading right now. So stop, if you want. To be honest, I’m not really writing for you anyway. I mean, if you get something out of […]
“So, do you have any kids?”
Today I volunteered with a few of our youth and gave out Christmas gifts and bags of food to folks who wouldn’t have been able to have those things otherwise. It was a good time and I enjoyed working with the woman who I was helping. And we started asking questions. And she knew I […]
Honor Your Body
I was reading the Holding Hope Advent reflection for the 2nd Week of Advent and this quote stuck out to me: Some days you may be just as frustrated with your own feelings as you are that of others’, but try to give yourself the freedom to simply be wherever your heart needs to be […]
Holding Hope: Guidance for Grieving Pregnancy Loss During Advent
A Presbyterian minister who we went to Columbia Theological Seminary with has put together an Advent devotional specifically for those grieving pregnancy loss. It is called Holding Hope: Guidance for Grieving Pregnancy Loss During Advent and was written by Ashley-Anne Masters. This is the first type of devotional I’ve seen specifically for those dealing with […]